Is this real

Well I have been thinking about the life and its mysteries, and last night all of sudden struck with the reality. We are not getting any younger and a day spent is a day less from our lives. What are we doing, are we doing humanitarian work, or just working for the big powers who have their hidden agenda behind every single penny donated. We miss out a lot and we miss out well. Not only us but all the people attached with it has problems with the lives we are living.

We are sharing a house, good and bad moments. But do you really thing that its real. What we are doing is surviving two months straight and live our life for the days we are on leave. Is this what all about and we are gonna get in this life, mere two weeks of being ourselves?

I think this is one of the depressing day in my mission life. Distance is a killer of every thing.