Same old story?

So is Yasir right when he says that no metter where you go or what you've got, we are never satisfied?Is it true that this is a tricky game that your mind plays you, but you can stop it?

Or is it just human nature, that is always looking for perfection, when perfection is not reserved to us?Or is it just a natural process, before you get used to any new situation you have to criticize it?

Anyway, I've been here one month and enthusiasm has left me. And I'm not even trying too much, I thought that I pushed, but no way to get it better. Of course life outside the office is much easier and can be nice, if I ever have it fixed, free of so many worries and troubles.

I don't miss isolation, frustration for luck of support, for broken cars, no internet, no proper response or crazy discussions with national staff, but I do miss my motivation. That feeling of being doing exactly what I wanted, what I though I was meant for, the feeling of contributing.

I never worked just for working, I thought that I've always worked because I liked what I was doing. Now I see the limits of a program where you don't realize what they are hiring you for until you get there. And you may feel this is not the right place for you.

So am I stuck again, this time in a big, official and distant apparatus?does not sound like mud, but still it may be difficult to find the right way out....