Wedding time

Surprised???Astonished??Scared????............

Tell me the truth, for a moment you thought I was talking about MY wedding...

Nooooooooo!Don't worry if I get married you will be invited, so you will know in due time, unless I fly to Las Vegas in a attack of madness, which is anyway quite impossible, since Edgar is colombian and won't be allowed to get in the States :-))!

No, in my very civilized new life I finally managed to be present to one of my dearest friend's wedding, meeting some old school mates and gossiping about our past 15 years from 10.30 in the morning to 8.30 in the evening, which is quite a good while and above all it's really fun.

Anyway, I don't deny that all this civilization, comfortable life, couple dinners, wedding cerimonies, babies, made me feel like getting married, especially when in my JPO orientation course they told me that I would get much more money if I had a dependant and my life will be much easier. In fact statistics say that JPOs normally get married the first year of their contract and are all pregnat the second year, due to UN benefits. Naho, since you are already married you can skip the first part and get pregnant the first year!

Out of jokes, I'm attending the JPO orientation program, I won't spend to much time on the professionally depressing part, but I met a lot of nice people and especially a lot of smiling, happy and positive married girls, who are really enthusiastic about their life and their future assignment and so positive about the possibility of being together even in the distance, or so proactive about a solution. The don't look tragic, they don't look depressed, they don't look stressed, they just look happy to live and to do this experience.This made me think about the way I spent my last year and a half, and I think that either was Liberia or it was me to be really in the bad spirit, taking difficulties as a tragedy and suffering so much when maybe there was a solution or at least a way to take it better.

It may be my civilized life now, but I feel that sometimes I, we (my bf and I) may have made things much more tragic than they were and I really hope this time can be different.

I hope I'm not just too relaxed due to civilization, I hope that something has really changed in me and that I, we, have finally learnt from experience.