Personal side of mission life: three people on the edge in the middle of bush in West Africa

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

Once

Once an obstacle was a challange, to be overcome with a good impulse and make the path wide and free. Now, the same obstacle it's only a reason to be tired. Once, supporting a proposal was a conctructive step towards a wider view, now it's only a frustration.
Once we were friends and we enjoyed eachother company. Now we are far and lost in our own thoughts.
When everything changed, it's not always easy to state and maybe not even relevant. Because sometimes it's so easy to change everything in one minute and so difficult to go back. Impossible. We never go back. It's never like before.
Once I used to think that I had motivation for discussion and improvement. Today I think that I give up.

3 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

I don't know what happend to you... but today I'm also flustrated and feel lonely and powerless, and irrelevant. My weaknesses prevail and nothing goes well... On days like today, I just coil up in the bed and pray for this moment to pass... I think it will pass. I think things will become relevant again. They will. They should. Naho

7:01 PM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Sorry about that, as our friend once said:
What a filthy job!
Could be worse
Could be raining!!

9:36 AM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

"Once upon a time i could control myself..." Eddie Vedder used to sing.
It was a long time ago.
Nonnobizzarro.

8:09 PM

 

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